Confessions of an Under-Shepherd

By Holly Culhane

Why, O Lord, do I swell with pride in myself so easily?
Why, O Lord, does my chest puff with just one word in my favor?
Why, O Lord, does my self become greater than all others so quickly?
How, O Lord, did Joseph, Moses .. and even Job before his trials, have such deep humility when they were given such power?
Why does mine seem so shallow?
How deep, O Lord, does the refining fire need to go to remove this sin from me?
How long, O Lord, must this be my thorn in the flesh?

By his divine power, God has given us everything we need for living a godly life. We have received all of this by coming to know him, the one who called us to himself by means of his marvelous glory and excellence. And because of his glory and excellence, he has given us great and precious promises. These are the promises that enable you to share his divine nature and escape the world’s corruption caused by human desires.
2 Peter 1:3-4

O, Lord, You have given me all I need to live a godly life! How could I have forgotten?

Father, help me to access the Holy Spirit within me, the Superpower You have provided, the Counselor and Comforter, the actual Breath of God, the Eternal Spirit who gives generously and willingly, the Strength-giver, the One who will teach me and lead me in goodness, the Spirit of Burning that purifies me, the Spirit of Judgment that brings conviction, the Spirit of Glory, and the Spirit of Grace, of Knowledge, of Truth, Life and Understanding, of Wisdom, of the Living God, of Prophecy, of the Fear of the Lord, of the Son, of Revelation.

This is whom You have placed within me!

As Your daughter, Your under-shepherd, You have given me all I need to fight and conquer the temptation I encounter, the sin that falls upon me.

You have provided a way!  Praise be to Your name! 

Your provision, Your protection and Your presence, dear Shepherd, is all I need to surrender to you, to live for you and to serve with You.

Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned!  Thank you for Your faithfulness!

Replace me with You.


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